Jan. 16th, 2004 04:01 am
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Its been a while since i've posted. A lots happened. Kier and I broke up. That was a shock. That was Jan 1, I don't mean to be cynical but what a new years gift. It was the longest most involving realationship i've ever been in. It took a lot not to throw in the towel at times but in all, it meant a lot to me. I learned a lot from that man. I still have a lot of feelings fro him, but thats not going to get me anywhere. Its hard letting go. I haven't let go. Mabey thats what my problem is. But then agian its only been a few weeks. Maybe i'm just afraid of being alone agian. Thats a common fear. its a common reason for people to prolong a stagnant relationship. I nee to stop looking in to the past and wishing I had what I don't anymore. If he's taught me one thing its to look forward to whats coming not feel remorse for what you don't have. ::sigh::
I just feel kinda alone agian. I mean I know my friends are there for me but I fell that they're all a bit byast. Especially the ones I see the most often. Mabey thats just my insercurities rising agian. I don't know what to think or feel anymore. The rugs been pulled from under my feet. Mabey I just need time to come to terms with things. Maey I should stop ranting about how much I feel like crap. Oh well.

Date: 2004-01-16 02:46 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

I'm sorry... *sigh* I know this isn't easy for you. I learned a lot from this relationship too, and I am beginning to see a pattern in how everything happens for a reason. I never used to but the more I look at things the more I'm like "If THAT hadn't happened, then THIS wouldn't have happened, so yaaarr for THAT." ^^

It sucks when people aren't on the same page... especially with a break up. Who knows why feelings change the way they do? I'm sorry you got caught in the crossfire & although I know I can't say anything to make you feel better right now, you WILL feel better, and when you're ready you'll find someone much better suited to appreciate ALL of you.

You're handling this with a good deal of maturity & respect... you're growing into a sensitive, thoughtful, nurturing, brave woman & I look forward to seeing your transformation into a beautiful butterfly ^^


~the other caterpillar XD

Date: 2004-01-17 12:32 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Yea, I learned alot from this relationship as well ^_^

Date: 2004-01-17 11:14 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
Dude! ><;;; You are so bad!

Date: 2004-01-18 06:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]

Date: 2004-03-25 06:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile]
I believe, we've all learned something through this relationship...

A. Everything happens for a reason,

B. Never give up or quit.

(add me damnyou! :D )


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